Friday, May 22, 2009

Character of the Week: Shadow!


Today's Character of the Week is the enigmatic Shadow!
Shadow, please tell us all about yourself.
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Hi.

Okay. I'm not sure what enigmatic means.

I'm 15, my real name is Brian. I call myself Shadow though.

I don't have any brothers or sisters. I have a mom and a dad. I don't see my dad much. He works alot. I don't see my mom much either. She has committees and stuff.

I don't have many friends at school. I'm not sure why. No one really talks to me. I do have friends here, though. Aidan and Bo and Ricky and Flower and Brokerage and Brandan and Goran and Ms. Fettleston. Others, too. Candy, too. Candy just broke up with her boyfriend. I didn't talk to her when she said that. I forgot Fin. Mira let me add it now. Fin's my friend, too.

I don't know what else to say.

Bo said he'd introduce me to his sister.

I had fun at the concert. I drank beer for the first time. That was really fun.

I don't know. I don't have much to say, really. I wish I had more friends. I read comic books, and make model airplanes with my dad sometimes. I like music. I go to school.

Aidan once asked if I feel bored. I don't feel bored. I don't know how I feel. I guess I feel like a shadow.

Oh. I forgot. I can't see myself in the mirror. I don't know why.

Mira said I should ask a question for the discussion. I don't know what to ask.

Was like this for you when you were my age?

Okay. That wasn't too bad.

77 comments:

DESTINY said...

Brian

I can tell you that your life will gain color.

But you must seek it out.

It is your Destiny.

Anonymous said...

Hi Destiny

Okay

Shadow

Candy said...

Oh Shadow, I was kinda like you, that's why I turned Goth. then a certain group of people accepted me and, even now I feel safe behind my makeup etc, but I don't advise you to do that. It's OK to be shy but couldn't you join a music club or something you're interested in so you can make friends your own age? I met your Mum - not a warm person - but you are so sweet, people will like you if you just get out there.
I like you!

The15YearOldNaive said...

im 15, i feel like i cant relate to alot of people because of my background
but what the hell, i just put on my happy mask and let the world just chase me by,
it's not like i cant be who i want to be,
i cabe be who i want to be, when i want to be.

If people cant accept you for who you are, stick with yourself because there will always be someone riding right along!

smile.

<3

Anonymous said...

Hi Candy

Shadow

Anonymous said...

Hi Candy

You like me?

Shadow

Anonymous said...

Hi 15yearoldNaive,

You're my age? I wish I could be like you.

I don't know how to get a happy mask.

Do you like music?

Shadow

Anonymous said...

Hi Candy

Did you really break up with Brian?

Shadow

Aidan said...

I never fit in anywhere I go. For one, I'm so damn tall. And also, since there's two of us (that's how people think of Kae and me, interchangeable) most people at school never got past that, even though Kae and I are hardly alike at all.

You'll see yourself again when the time is right.

Jason said...

Hey Shadow,

What're your favorite bands?

Laurel said...

How about photographs? Can you see yourself in pictures?

Ricky said...

Hi, Shadow. The tough thing about being fifteen is that everything feels like it's going to be forever.

My dad passed away when I was about your age. He and I were as close to friends as you can be with your dad at that age. I thought my life would never get back to normal, but it did.

Now after working with Maelstrom for a year, I can tell you that even really weird problems will eventually go away or you'll learn to work them to your advantage.

So hang in there. And stay away from the beer until you're legal age, okay? I've never been to jail, but I hear it sucks.

Vic said...

Hi, Shadow! I'm sorry you don't have a reflection, but Vic doesn't have one either and he does okay.

Troubadour said...

My teenage years were frought with despair. My father was a silversmith, too obsessed with his work to pay any attention to my mother or me. My mother stopped paying attention to me when she started sleeping with other men. I know she only did that to get my Dad's attention, but it didn't work. All it did was isolate me. I ended up with some pretty complex psychological issues, I hope you fare better.

Kaelin said...

Ricky's right. Jail sucks.

So it's important not to get caught.

Anonymous said...

Hi Aidan,

I hope you're right that I'll see myself.

I hope I'm tall like you someday.

Shadow

Anonymous said...

Hi Jason

I like lots of bands.

Um. Do you like bands? Which ones?

Shadow

Anonymous said...

Hi Laurel,

I don't know. Maybe. I don't look at pictures of myself much.

Shadow

Anonymous said...

Hi Ricky,

Really? I could go to jail for beer? I didn't know that.

Sorry about your dad.

Thanks.

Shadow

Anonymous said...

Hi Vic,

How do you shave? People asked me how I will. I don't know.

Maybe I won't shave.

Shadow

Anonymous said...

Hi Troubadour,

I don't see my mom and dad much either.

Maybe someday I'll be a ghost like you.

Shadow

Anonymous said...

Hi Kaelin,

What do you do to not get caught?

Shadow

Vic said...

Shadow, I don't need to shave. I'm not sure why.

Candy said...

Hey Shadow, You're probably too young to have to shave yet and I expect when your whiskers begin to grow you will also have a reflection in the mirror.Oh, yes, Brian's way back there in London and y'know I don't miss him one little bit! Maybe if you joined a kung fu class you would get to feel stronger about yourself.
Stop worrying. Get out there and do something - not drinking though.
Remember, you have influential friends [Not me, the others,} but I am a friend.

Anonymous said...

Hi Vic,

Okay. I think I'll need to shave.

Hope so.

Shadow

Anonymous said...

Hi Candy,

Thanks.

I'm your friend, too.

Shadow

Nevin said...

We're all your friends here, Shadow. We're happy to know you!

Kaelin said...

Shadow:

To not get caught: Other people see you whether they show it or not. We all see you. You're only invisible to yourself, not to everyone else.

Learn to know the difference.

Aidan said...

Hey Shadow,
Tell us what you dreamed last night.

Marenya said...

Dear Shadow,
It's nice to talk to you! I think I can answer your question but I need to explain something first. My people, the Hanorja, live about twice as long as humans, and we age half as fast. So, when I was fifteen I was about seven for a human. But now I'm thirty-eight which means that, comparably, I'm only 3 years old than you.
Yes, it is hard to be fifteen. And yes, everyone pretty much feels invisible at that age. I know this because not only have I experienced it, but I watched my cousins go through it too. And my mother explained it to me. She's wonderful! you must miss yours very much when she is gone. I don't know what a "committee" is, but it must be very important to keep her away from you.
Anyway, I did feel kind of invisible for a couple of reasons. For one, I am a poor cousin of nobility. My mother and I live here on the generosity of her cousin, Lord Tarnbel. We are family, but also servants in a way. It's hard to explain. So I am part of their family, but not part of it. I assist my cousin Pelwyn as her maid-in-waiting, and when she goes to Tor Aden to be the Princess (and one day, the Queen), I will go with her and stay as long as she wants me.
I don't expect anyone to notice me. It's not my place. But at the same time, it does create a kind of ache inside you when you see other people living their lives around you and you know that you can never really have the same thing.
But I am grateful for what I do have, and even just living with Pelwyn and Melbrinor (we call him Mel), whom she will marry, and helping them raise their children will be enough for me, I think.
Though sometimes, I wonder if it really is enough, but then I'm ashamed of myself.

Aidan said...

Marenya,

It's not enough. Don't feel bad for feeling bad.

But, as a prince myself, it ain't all it's cracked up to be.

Anonymous said...

Hi Nevin,

Thanks. You're my friend, too.

Shadow

Anonymous said...

Hi Kaelin,

That's a good idea. I know a good place to hide.

Will you get me some beer?

Shadow

Anonymous said...

Hi Aidan,

I don't remember.

Oh, I do remember. I think I dreamed about a football. It was being tossed around. Then it kept going all over the field, even sideways, and then it became a bird, and I couldn't catch it, and no one caught it, then it got all red and hot.

What did you dream?

Shadow

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Anonymous said...

Hi Maryena

Yeah.

It feels like that. Yeah.

You're nice. I think you should be the Princess.

Shadow

Marenya said...

Dear Aiden,

I believe you. Everyone thinks life is easy for Mel just because he's magical, and handsome, and basically perfect in every way. But the burdens he carries are enormous, and he has to appear confident and cheerful all the time. I don't envy Pelwyn the job of being his wife, but if anyone can do it, she can. (Her brother Gorrith and I call them "Pel-Mel" behind their backs.) ;o)

But I can't help also wondering if... um... once they're married... ahem... if it's... *different*... You know. With a Prince.

*blush*

But, Shadow, I have to echo what Candy said. No one can be "you" for you. You have to just take a deep breath, gather your courage, and make the effort. You would be surprised how just a little bit of forthrightness will gain you friends, if you only take the chance and do it.

I have no problem with that. I have plenty of forthrightness. I get that from my father, or so I'm told!

Christine H said...

Mira - I'm sending you an email.

Mira said...

Christine -

Okay. :-)

M.

Marenya said...

Hi Shadow ~

Thank you for saying that I should be the Princess. I really don't want to be, though.

It's too bad you don't have any brothers or sisters. I don't either, but I have five cousins. That's plenty for me! Pel and I are the only girls. We stick together.

Do you think maybe someone put a spell on you to make you not see your reflection?

Marenya

Marenya said...

Where is Mrs. Fettleston these days? I miss her.

Faldur said...

Brian, lad, you need to find a purpose! We all feel that way until Heaven shows us our destinies. Don't stop seeking until you find it. Then everything will become clear.

Anonymous said...

What do you look like?

Anonymous said...

Hi Maryena,

I don't think it's a spell. Magic isn't real. Right?

I wish I had cousins. I have a grandmother. We see her every weekend. Every Sunday.

Okay, if you don't want to be the Princess.

I still think you're nice, though.


Shadow

Anonymous said...

Hi Faldur,

Okay. I was thinking I might like to be a fireman. Or a pilot.

Shadow

Anonymous said...

Hi Anonymous,

I have brown hair. It sticks out. I'm skinny. I want to be taller.

Shadow

Aidan said...

A pilot would be cool. You could fly me around when you get old enough.

I'd better not tell you what I dreamed. This is a family site.

Fresh Water Mermaids said...

I would have thought you were not a real boy.

That you were/are a shadow.

More like tinkerbell knew that Peter had a shadow with a life of its own too.

Maybe you were a shadow, lost from its boy.

Or a runaway shadow.

Christine H said...
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Marenya said...

Thanks, Brian. I think you're nice too.

Too nice to be called "Shadow."

Magic is very real. A bit scary, but real.

(word verification: beivess - a female beaver)

Faldur said...

I don't know what either of those things are, but if you want it, do it!

I need to catch some sleep. I have the night patrol.

Aden Fath, Brian. Verbril kelfa.

(Have faith. May the stars light your way.)

Elaine 'still writing' Smith said...
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Elaine 'still writing' Smith said...

Hey Shadow

Didn't know your parents tortured you with that other name - no offence but no wonder you opted for a change! Do you think parents really think about what it will do to you, growing up having to answer to their choice of name twice a day at school?
I don't have sibs either (it was quiet before - now it's silent) I think I would have liked a brother; although Jack used to say that was plain foolishness and I was better off without.
I love music but not the tame stuff or bands that don't know how to play instruments - I love - yep really and truly love 'Enter ..' and 'Fell...' I so nearly got to go see them together last year but Mum played the great detective like she out Sherlocked me and bang went that plan.
I pretended that I really got to see Maelstrom the other week - it's as close as I've ever been to a real gig.
That mirror thing sounds like weird - must really freak you out?
Love the happy mask idea I'm giving that a lot of serious thought.
You get a lot of fire stuff in your life?

FLOWER - weed?

Anonymous said...

Hi Aidan

Now I really want to know what you dreamed. I have those dreams sometimes.

Don't tell Candy, okay?

When I'm a pilot, I'll fly you around. That would be fun.

Shadow

Anonymous said...

Hi Fresh Water Mermaids,

Are you a mermaid?

No, I'm real. I just call myself Shadow.

Shadow

Anonymous said...

Hi Marenya,

Really? Magic is real. Cool.

You're nice.

Shadow

Anonymous said...

Hi Faldur,

Okay. Aden fath verbril kelfa.

That's cool.

A fireman puts out fires. He's cool. A pilot flys planes. That's cool, too.

I think pilot is best.

Shadow

Anonymous said...

Hi Flower,

You're funny.

Sorry you didn't see the band. I went to Maelstrom concert. It was great.

You should go with us next time.

Yeah the mirror thing is weird.

I don't know about fire. I like fire.

Shadow

Elaine 'still writing' Smith said...

You know when you were little, did you do the game where you put your hands over your eyes, and you're dead sure you're invisible?
If you do that (like, close your eyes or whatever) how do you prove to yourself that you're still visible?

Speaking of which - being here and all that - well here really - I do the candle thing. Will glued four candles to the bedpostend thingamy whatevers - nightlights in glass things. Night is scary but oddly not as scary; thought I might maybe need a fireman - done training yet?!

FLOWER

Anonymous said...

Flower,

That's a funny game.

When you took your hands away, you could see.

You want to be a fireman too? That candle thing sound cool.

How old are you Flower?

Shadow

Elaine 'still writing' Smith said...

If it's still May - I'm still 'nearly' sixteen. I'm dreading hitting June no one better mention the 'B' day thing - I'm just not that ... well, anything really.
I've never thought about jobs.
I was going to go to Uni because it seemed easy 'more' school but not school. I don't want to go to school - Sam, Jam and Egg don't. Will's been saying I should go join them for working and stuff - p-l-e-a-s-e!

Anonymous said...

Hi Flower

Okay. I'll be 16 in November.

I like birthdays. I get to pick where we go.

When I'm 16, I'll get a license.

Shadow

Marenya said...

Good night, Brian. I'm getting sleepy. I'm going to curl up here and dream about food.

Have a good weekend! I hope you learn the secret of your mirror problem soon. Let us know, would you please?

Good night,
Marenya

Anonymous said...

Hi Marenya -

Okay.

Shadow

Anonymous said...

Hi Everyone,

I hope I did okay.

I told Mira I wanted Candy to be next week's.

I have to go to bed now, too.

I'm glad you're my friends.

Shadow

Faldur said...

You did very well.

Elaine 'still writing' Smith said...

Shadow

That makes you the baby! You'd be in the year below if we were at school here (Y10) - arf!
Is changing year groups even automatic there? Chelsea would never have made it out of Y7, without me and Jack sorting out her homework all the time!
How's school? Did you say you have trouble making friends? The Plastic Fashionistas tried to make my life a misery back in the day. I do that well-enough by myself now.
I've nearly exhausted myself to candle time - Gotta gotta ...

Cheers
FLOWER

Mira said...

I agree with Faldur. Thanks, Shadow for a chance to get to know you. It was very brave of you.

Thanks.

You'll be pleased to hear that Candy has accepted. She said, 'If Shadow can do it, she can.'

:-)

Also, I'm really pleased to announce that we have a last minute event!

Marenya is hosting a picnic tomorrow in her cave! Very cool!!Should be fun.

No need to R.S.V.P., but we really hope you can make it.

Ricky said...

Nice visiting with you, Shadow.

Thanks for the invite, Marenya. Tomorrow is a travel day for us, but we'll do our best to stop in, even if it's only for a few minutes.

Candy said...

Good night, Shadow. Sleep well!

Jason said...

You asked me about what music I listen to. Nothing you'd be into, I'm afraid.

Young pup like you, you ought to be listening to the punk rock.

Aidan said...

All right, here's my dream. I don't really like talking about them cuz I usually dream the future.

I dreamed about Cassidy. Kinda freaked me out, really. She was being nice to me. Really nice, if you get my drift. And after, we went for a walk and the path dropped into nothing. Just black and she was gone and I woke up.

I hate those dreams. I hate being a Seer. I suck at it.

Night, Shadow. It was fun.

Anonymous said...

Hi Flower,

Where do you go to school?

Shadow

Anonymous said...

Hi Mira

Thanks. It wasn't too bad.

I'm glad Candy wants to.

Shadow

Anonymous said...

Hi Candy

Shadow

Anonymous said...

Hi Jason

Punk is okay.

I might become Goth.

Shadow

Anonymous said...

Hi Aidan

Will your dream come true?

I wish some of my dreams would.

Shadow